Wednesday, April 8, 2015

On This Day Six years Ago...


Copyright ByJewelsMax2009Dear Little One, 

On this day six years ago I sat down to breathe and imagine what it would be like to be your mom.  I stopped, gently rubbed my huge belly as I closed my eyes and envisioned the being inside me. I thanked God, so much, for allowing me to carry you. I didn't know if you would be a boy or a girl and I already loved you so very much. My heart was immensely grateful you chose me to be your mom.  

For a great part of my life I yearned to know you, I've always felt your spirit has  lived within mine, you've always been a part of me and forever will be.

From the moment I knew that I would soon meet you I began to write you letters. I prayed for your health and well being. I prayed for strength to coach you, to guide you. From the moment I saw and heard your heart beating I loved you unconditionally.

Six years ago today I sat on my bed, took deep breathes and thought to myself, "In three weeks I will finally meet you." How excited I was that in three weeks I would hold you in my arms, I would be able to look into your eyes, smell your breathe and caress your little hands while holding you close. The feeling was thrilling but nothing as thrilling as the actual moment when you arrived.

In three days we will celebrate your sixth birthday and like every day I will thank the Lord for the Gift of YOU!
YOU, you are everything, you are even greater than my most greatest desire. I am so proud and humbled that I am your mother.
Every time I look at you, even if I'm scolding you and screaming about one thing or another, I think, WOW, you are such an amazing miracle, such a wonderful gift to the world. What a precious being you are to me.
When you call me Momma, Mom, Mami, and Julie it's like music to my soul. Your voice is a song that enlivens the joy that lives in my heart. I use to think and say that you are my little external heart, the one that walks around without me but no, you are my child, the love of my life and you are and always will be a part of me. You carry me, I carry you, we are soul mates forever always.
I celebrate you everyday little boy, life is a party on most days and a classroom on other days but it's always grace-filled and a celebration of love.
When I watch you as you play the piano and just figure out the songs you want to learn or when you compose your own songs, I am struck by your talents and your gifts. When you wake up in the middle of the night and take care of yourself or when you need something that you can already take care of on your own but you so desire my company, I am grateful for you.
I pray your compassion and kind spirit keeps growing. I pray that you follow your passion and your purpose without reservations. I pray that you know God and experience His grace at every single moment of your life. The every day moments, the monumental moments, the moments of challenge and the moments of sheer joy. I pray that you always have the faith and the courage I see you have now. I pray that it grows along with you.
Looking forward to continue DOING LIFE with you, the way only you know how. You're such joy for me, your dad, your siblings, your aunts, uncles, cousins, and so many others. Your middle name is really just an initial but in my mind I always knew it stood for JOY.

You are my Joy, little one.
I love you!

Love, Julie 
oxoxox


Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

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Namastè.
In possibility,
Organic JeWeLs