Wednesday, April 8, 2015

On This Day Six years Ago...


Copyright ByJewelsMax2009Dear Little One, 

On this day six years ago I sat down to breathe and imagine what it would be like to be your mom.  I stopped, gently rubbed my huge belly as I closed my eyes and envisioned the being inside me. I thanked God, so much, for allowing me to carry you. I didn't know if you would be a boy or a girl and I already loved you so very much. My heart was immensely grateful you chose me to be your mom.  

For a great part of my life I yearned to know you, I've always felt your spirit has  lived within mine, you've always been a part of me and forever will be.

From the moment I knew that I would soon meet you I began to write you letters. I prayed for your health and well being. I prayed for strength to coach you, to guide you. From the moment I saw and heard your heart beating I loved you unconditionally.

Six years ago today I sat on my bed, took deep breathes and thought to myself, "In three weeks I will finally meet you." How excited I was that in three weeks I would hold you in my arms, I would be able to look into your eyes, smell your breathe and caress your little hands while holding you close. The feeling was thrilling but nothing as thrilling as the actual moment when you arrived.

In three days we will celebrate your sixth birthday and like every day I will thank the Lord for the Gift of YOU!
YOU, you are everything, you are even greater than my most greatest desire. I am so proud and humbled that I am your mother.
Every time I look at you, even if I'm scolding you and screaming about one thing or another, I think, WOW, you are such an amazing miracle, such a wonderful gift to the world. What a precious being you are to me.
When you call me Momma, Mom, Mami, and Julie it's like music to my soul. Your voice is a song that enlivens the joy that lives in my heart. I use to think and say that you are my little external heart, the one that walks around without me but no, you are my child, the love of my life and you are and always will be a part of me. You carry me, I carry you, we are soul mates forever always.
I celebrate you everyday little boy, life is a party on most days and a classroom on other days but it's always grace-filled and a celebration of love.
When I watch you as you play the piano and just figure out the songs you want to learn or when you compose your own songs, I am struck by your talents and your gifts. When you wake up in the middle of the night and take care of yourself or when you need something that you can already take care of on your own but you so desire my company, I am grateful for you.
I pray your compassion and kind spirit keeps growing. I pray that you follow your passion and your purpose without reservations. I pray that you know God and experience His grace at every single moment of your life. The every day moments, the monumental moments, the moments of challenge and the moments of sheer joy. I pray that you always have the faith and the courage I see you have now. I pray that it grows along with you.
Looking forward to continue DOING LIFE with you, the way only you know how. You're such joy for me, your dad, your siblings, your aunts, uncles, cousins, and so many others. Your middle name is really just an initial but in my mind I always knew it stood for JOY.

You are my Joy, little one.
I love you!

Love, Julie 
oxoxox


Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

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Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
BeLove...
Namastè.
In possibility,
Organic JeWeLs

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Haunting

These past two years have brought me face to face with the intensity, passion, sadness, deepness, beauty, and just monumental power of death. I've been going back and forth wondering why it is that I've had to experience such deep and personal and consistent losses and slowly, at every moment, it's coming together for me.
Last week I took my five year old to the Going Home/Life Celebration of a dear sister-friend's father. The ceremony was beautifully moving and haunting.

(haunt·ing ˈhôn(t)iNG/ adjective
poignant and evocative; difficult to ignore or forget.  
"the melodies were elaborate and of haunting beauty"
synonyms:evocative, emotive, affecting, moving, touching, stirring, powerful).

The week before I spent about several hours creating three beautiful memorial collages and one 22 Page Scrapbook for an uncle-friend who passed and was so moved by all the lives he had affected and the full life he lead in those short, wonderful 71 years. At the hospital when I went to see him I was reminded of the moment I witnessed the last breathe of my dearest sister-friend's mother in love last year and the last labored breathes of my uncle four years ago.
The only time I was in the room for a birth was for the birth of my son and the first breathe he took melted and eased my soul. The one time I was in the room for the passing of a dear, loved, and revered friend that last breathe melted my heart and also eased my soul.

Today I am seeing the synchronicity, the blessing, the magic, the wonder, the simpleness of life and death.  I just felt the desire and need to share.

One of my favorite motivators is Dr. Wayne Dyer and he always expresses that death is really like just moving into a different room, I'd like to elaborate and say death is like moving into all of time and space, simultaneously. Death is haunting and so grace filled, as is life. 

What are your thoughts, experiences, and feelings about life and death?


Have a blessed and mindful day friends!

Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

Thank you for reading and Sharing.

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Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
BeLove...
Namastè.
In possibility,
Organic JeWeLs

Friday, October 17, 2014

The Universe Conspires...

The other night I was having a conversation about someone who was pretty present in my life for a while, we were good friends. We are still friends but because of our lives it's seldom when we connect.  Nevertheless, I was having a conversation about my friend and the very next morning I missed their call on my mobile.

Joyfully, this past weekend I had traveled with my family to the Dominican Republic for a few days. When we were returning from our short stint there I saw two book stores at the airport and told my partner I needed to find a copy of Paolo Coehlo's The Alchemist, in Spanish cause I had lost my original copy, which, sadly, I never read!  My partner said he would find it online for me and that would be great but I really felt that buying the book in DR after this trip would be a great reminder of the time shared, anyway, I didn't find the book.  When we stepped into the fuselage we were upgraded to first class, that was very cool.  Initially I thought I would to take a nap but I was feeling so comfortable I decided to take out my book so I can read, The Gifts of Imperfection, Let Go of Who You Think You're Suppose to be and Embrace Who You Are by Brené Brown, Ph.D., L.M.S.W. 


When I opened the book at that moment, I was on page 90 and when I got to page 91 guess what I read in the GET INSPIRED portion?!?

She talked about her 2007 (Breakdown) Spiritual Awakening it happened after or right before her amazing TEDTalk on Vulnerability, the one  you may have gotten a link to from me (I got it from my friend Jude! THANKS!!!!) a few years ago or not but definitely try to check it out. And she mentions Anne Lamott, Sue Monk Kidd, and Pema Chodron and lastly she writes: 

And last, I absolutely love this quote from Paulo Coelho's, The Alchemist: "...intuition is really a sudden immersion of the soul into the universal current of life, where the histories of all people are connected, and we are able to know everything, because it's all written there."

It was on the very next page that I read and this was moments prior to me searching for the book in the two stores at the airport.

Some folks hear this and think nothing of it, some folks laugh and think how
silly I am and there are those of you who see what I mean and think, What We Focus On Expands, Where we put our Energy Is What We Feed and Grows.

I see this trivial moments and smile cause In My Heart and Soul I know nothing is trivial.

Have a blessed and mindful day friends!

Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

Thank you for reading and Sharing.

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Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
BeLove...
Namastè.
In possibility,
Organic JeWeLs

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Grounded

This is my favorite tree.
Every time I see it, I smile.
It doesn't matter the season, it always inspires a deep seeded smile. 

When I see the tree I'm reminded of my family, my first family, my extended family, my partnered up family, my church family, my work family, my communal family, all my family. 

I think of how different we all are; I think of the tapestry of sorts.  The intricate and complex yet simple arrangement of all the branches extending bring to mind a dance or sorts.

Every season it looks very different and if you look closely you will see its constant presence is a consistent and majestic tapestry of Love.

When I see my tree I feel grounded.  It's such a joy for me to see!

Do you have a favorite tree? Can you share a picture of it with me? Where is it?
What do you like about it?  When did you first notice this tree?


Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

Thank you for reading and Sharing.

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Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
BeLove...
Namastè.
In possibility,
Organic JeWeLs

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

Meditation

Have you ever heard, "Prayer is you talking to God 
and Meditation is God talking to you?"

This is what I believe.

I'm curious,  What do you know about Meditation, what are your thoughts on it, what do you believe?

I am on a Meditation expedition...

Please share your knowledge with me.


Meditation Resources:

NY INSIGHT Meditation Center, Where Hearts & Minds Awaken

Meditation-101-with-Deepak-Chopra on OWN


Meditation: All it takes is 10 mindful minutes


Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

Thank you for reading and Sharing.

Sharing is caring!
Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
BeLove...
Namastè.
In possibility,
Organic JeWeLs

Friday, September 12, 2014

An Affirmation.

A value I have, that I often share, is the fact that I am a firm believer that What I FOCUS on EXPANDS.   I believe I create my life, even when I'm not paying attention. I believe in the power of intention and find that the Universe supports my intentions, in all ways. I feel this innately and find it to be a universal truth.  I am often moved and grateful for the affirmations I receive, moment to moment.  It is inspiring to witness alignment.  With this in mind I had to share an experience I had this week that started with a thought I had and chose to share with my internet friends.

Here is the discussion that ensued via one of my main Social Networking platforms when I shared my thought:


This was my status update:
There are good people in the world,
they are ready to be kind to you and to help you...
be one of those good people.



The first comment I received went like this (Person A):  

I'm one of those people. And I always wonder, will they be there to help me too?!?


I responded with:   


Only you can answer that question, love. 

Dios dice, "Ayudate que yo te ayudare." <--This means
--> God says, Help yourself and I will help you. 

The Response that came back was (Person A): 

No I can't answer it.....The people I've helped have to answer it when 
I am in a bind and call them! 


My Response to this was: 


I'm sure if you sit down and think about it although you have endured 
so much loss you have been truly blessed by so much grace.
 I'm sure of it. I for one haven't gotten any call and if I can't respond as you 
need I would hope that you know I'm a god person and all I want is to be kind to you 
and for your greater good. I keep thinking about when I hold the door for someone and 
they don't say thank you. I use to be so very righteous that it would make me angry if the ungrateful momo didn't say thank you and thankfully, I'm at a place where I hold the 
door because it's what I want to do, it's how I want to show up, a verbal thank you isn't necessary for me to feel good about what I just did. I know it's not what you are talking 
about specifically but it's all connected. Stop for a moment and think of all the great in 
your life and you won't have to wonder cause we are all already there for you! 



At this point a third person engages in the dialogue, 
Person C responds to Person A:
You're so right...Talk is sometimes too easy and cheap and you'll never know 

until you ask for help or kindness. Sometimes the least likely person 

will step up and the most likely will disappear into the sunset.




To this I replied: 
Whatever we choose is what we will experience. And...the man who introduced me to 

The AMAZING FOUR AGREEMENTS, nothing is personal 

so disappearing into the sunset is OK. 




Person C responds to Me:
Don't take it personal doesn't mean don't have emotions. 

Not everything is ok, but most things should not be taken personal 

unless there is a lesson that needs to be learned.



To this I replied:
If you ask me to show up for you a certain way and I can't 

it's not really about what I think of you or feel for you  or your worth. 

That's all I'm saying and we all feel what we outta feel. 

Everything is fine at all times, even when it's not. 

The world is conspiring for my greater good. If you believe different that's okay too.


Person C responds to Me:
ok, it's not biblical, it's just your opinion and mine. 

Each of us is a story maker and teller. 

What's good and right for you is just that.




To this I replied:
AMEN! The world conspiring for my greater good isn't biblical, 

it's just a reality. It's also conspiring for your greater good, 

you just have to believe it. ANd yes, AMEN, what's appropriate for me is 

just that,appropriate for me. I choose to not break things down as good or bad or right or

 wrong but that's a whole 'nother debate for another time. Gotta get back to work. Namaste!




I did not get anymore responses after that at this point. 
 
So the alignment and affirmation I received was enormous for me. I was watching a recording


his book, "The Alchemist."  To my dismay I 

have not read it yet so imagine my elation 

when they discussed this Universal Truth, 

which is apparently illustrated throughout the 

entire book, "When you want something all the universe conspires in helping you to get it." 

We are all entitled to our perspectives, or 

opinions, and of course our experience.  I do 

recommend if you are not familiar with this 

truth, research it further, scientifically, 

spiritually, mathematically, in all ways, get to the root of it and share with me your outcomes.

Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

Thank you for reading and Sharing.

Sharing is caring!
Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
BeLove...
Namastè.
In possibility,
Organic JeWeLs


Tuesday, September 9, 2014

What Do You Call It?

Lately I've been thinking a whole lot about that thing, You know, that thing deep inside of me, deep inside of 
you.  Some folks call it, "inner guidance," some call it, "intuition," and some even call it, "a gut feeling."

I mean isn't it imperative to think about this cause doesn't it guide actions? 

Does it guide your actions?
What is your idea regarding that inner feeling that inspires, motivates, and moves you? 
What do you call it? 
Do you call it anything at all?

At time I think of it as, experience, wisdom, divinity, passion all combined into moments of true clarity but what do I call it? I haven't found a word for it cause it just isn't that black and white.

Is it light? 
Is it drive? 
Could it be reality?

Do you know what IT is I am speaking of?
Tell me, what do YOU call it?

Love transcends all things.  Trust in the wonder and power of your dreams.

Thank you for reading and Sharing.

Sharing is caring!
Love exists and Life is a miracle, treat it all as such.
BeLove...
Namastè.
In possibility,
Organic JeWeLs